Book: Cry

They took my soul out of me. And forced to live.

Remember... You asked, "You brought me here so I could learn to swim"? I told you that in order to leave. I lied to you then. I brought you here to drown you.

And I want this world to always remember that Kim Taehyung was madly in love with Jeon Jungkook, that he is still crazy about him. And that she will love him until her last breath. As long as he's alive.

Always be quick to confess. And you also need to hurry to love, no matter how much pain this love brings. Otherwise, why live at all? What then is the meaning of this life?

You left without knowing how much I love you.

I don't need anything from you, nothing, you hear? Just come back, I beg you. Come back and say you didn't leave me. That it was a punishment. I've been punished enough already, Jungkook. Tell me to my face that you hate me for everything that you had to endure through my fault. Hit, shoot me in the heart, throw me off this cliff. I am ready to endure anything, just please be alive, the most alive of all, because I ... I can’t live without you ...

It's been two years since you... And I still haven't learned to live without you. Jungkook, it hurts so much... It hurts so much that I can't breathe. Those words of yours… “Please never forget our history. Never forget about us." This is a very cruel request, Jungkook. If you only knew how much I want to forget about us. How I want to stop letting you into my thoughts and dreams, to forbid you to laugh in my memories. I just want to let you go. Let go forever. Why did you go away? You promised you wouldn't leave me. That you never leave...

- Yes. Nothing new.

Live Taehyung. The rest is trifles, mere trifles that can be solved. In this life, everything can be solved. Except death.

How is Jungkook supposed to deal with this? How can he live without him? There is only one answer to both questions. No way. It's not even worth trying. It makes no sense.

Taehyung is no more. A few moments ago, he was still there, he stood, breathed, lived so close, very close ... But now he is gone.

Taehyung is so happy there, he laughs so much… Jeongguk would give his life for the chance to hear that laugh in real life. And he no longer hurts. Everything that hurt him recently, as if passes, heals.

After all, they, burning with their love in each other's arms, really felt yesterday that something irreparable and terrible was approaching. Both. But each of them was silent, not wanting to hurt the other. Because neither of them was going to say goodbye.

“You haven’t forgotten about us either, am I right? Do these thoughts suffocate you too?” They suffocate.