Book: Stigmation

If a guy refuses to come when you're in the hospital and you ask for it, then... he's not worth even thinking about.

Never look for malicious intent where, most likely, ordinary stupidity took place.

Now, the social network is great. It is a pity that in real life it is impossible to press only one button and immediately eliminate anyone who does not like it. No, the real is the quest for survival. Fasten your seat belts, put on your diaper and get ready to yell: be scarier than a roller coaster!

Jesse, I may make mistakes. Terrible. And do not take into account other people's feelings... I'm so long lived outside of society, that, most likely, does not know how to do it. But I want to learn. I want to change. Want to have friends. We have, of course, did not come off, but... you can come just as a friend? To talk about something. It was good with you.

You're supposed to tell everything, damn it!
And would you still have kissed me? - I asked sarcastically.
- Of course! - quipped Jessie.
- I fucking love to put the girls in the NICU! You with the same success could ask for to beat you half to death. Butcher, that's what I felt. God, what if you died?
- I'm dying, Jessie. Every day. Every day is a step to the grave. Just kissing it's better to die.
It's great if your kind of philosophy helps to live, Dolores.. but it is wrong. Perverted. It will kill you prematurely.

- Each of us lives in a castle, from which it can not escape, if it's any consolation, Laurie. None of us chooses his body. What is given - in this live. And believe me, many people much less fortunate than you. Blind, deaf, legless, maimed, suffering from all sorts of diseases, genetic disorders, various forms of inferiority. None of us can escape from his castle! We all have to sacrifice. Legless can't feel the soft grass under my feet. Deaf people can't hear the sound of the ocean. Dwarfs don't play basketball, but wheelchair users can't dance tango! And people like you can not to anyone touch! Collect all will in a fist and accept it, finally, with all the responsibility!

And the Princess says that living in an enchanted castle, whose name Stigmation. The castle will not let her go to any knight. And for every attempt to escape will take revenge - to leave her body stigma. Know what is stigma? This burn mark, which the ancient Greeks marked slaves and criminals. And Stigmation will condemn the prisoner. Over and over again until the pain will not win. The pain always wins.

- What do you know about sex?
- Everything you need! I read the book "Children about "It", and "the Encyclopedia for young people" and "Your little girl is growing up", and found the parents of one book.... "for adults." There is some kind of circus acrobatics, just barf.
- Now forget all that is written there, - said the sage. - Sex is not tumbling. Not anatomy and not physiology. No matter who, what and where of vanities. It doesn't matter. The most important thing is invisible, it's not on the pictures.
- And that, even a movie about this thing? - I stared.
Yes, but it's not about that. The most important thing going on in the mind: your thoughts are all fading. You can't think about anything except the next person. And what you can do with it.... In a good way. And with his consent, of course. Time disappears, space disappears. And inside a hurricane that seems a little bit more and the head will carry.... And for all that's enough kiss. Or even the touch of a hand. Here is sex. And the fact that you're in the books I read, is all...... nonsense.

I finally started to realize what a joke played with me Lord. That sight, hearing and sense of smell is the greatest treasure, but I'd have traded any of them for a miracle touch. Said goodbye with fragrant flowers and aroma of freshly prepared food, but I could live among other people. Couldn't see, but could kiss. Would have traded all the sounds for the warmth of someone else's skin under your fingers.

- Cross swords with death you maybe are not ready yet, but you can stand beside me and... to frown at her.
Frown to death, I smiled.
Yes. Frown, waving her hands and showing middle finger while Fergus uncovering your katana, laughed Andrea.
Will do, Sensei, - I nodded.

But seriously, William, I think if you fight for something to the limit, God will not stand, slap his forehead and exclaim: "Here! On! Take it! Just leave me alone! I'll have to go into the database to find your profile among the other seven billion earthlings, rewrite your fate, you will have to kill the whole day and a lot of cosmic energy, but since you're like a tank, ready to his purpose, spit on My design, please!.." You know? I think it's all about the struggle. In it the whole point and only there.