Movie: Красивый мальчик (Beautiful Boy)

Thank you.

Long story short, I've been clean for 14 months. I work at this center, I really enjoy helping others tie. I have a mentor Spencer. It shows how good it is to be sober. And I still have my family. My amazing mom. Dad is amazing too. I want them to be proud of me.

- Yes, you are right. At some point, your own choice. Will you let me finish? You are a writer, so write. You get it. This is your day, this is your choice. What will you do now? As soon as you accept, you lose the choice. You will lose everything. So keep making the right choice.

- It sounds rather contradictory.

Hi everyone, I've had a tough week. Some of you know, some don't, Frances is gone anymore – she died of an overdose on Sunday and I'm grieving for her, but I've learned something: I've actually been grieving all these years because even when she was alive, she didn't seem to exist. It's hard to live when you're mourning the living, so in a way it's even better. I loved it so much... loved my girl so much. I always felt that I had to stay strong, that there would be some event in the future for which I was stocking up on strength, but after that event there could be no more. I hope she's not suffering now. Goodbye, Francis.

- Good.

I'll tell you something important: when you come back, I'll be here, I'll be waiting for you as always, okay? Call when you miss, and I will call you. Do you know how much I love you? No words can describe how much I love you, and if you put all the words together, they still do not describe how much I love you. What I feel for you is everything in the world. I love you more than anything else.