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Imagine a person walking down the street under the lights. When it passes exactly under a street lamp, his shadow is thicker but less likely. Then, when it goes on, the shadow grows before him. It is becoming longer and longer while becoming more faded, and behind the man there is another shadow from the lantern. It becomes shorter and shorter, until it reaches the greatest thickness, when a person is exactly under the lamp.
Assume that the man under the first light - I immediately after the murder.
I feel strong and confident. I go forward, a shadow in front of me grows as my pleasure, but at the same time, there is the pain is the shadow behind me from the next lamp. In the middle between the two lights, the pain becomes so strong that it outweighs my pleasure. With every step it takes, and the pain increases. Finally, the pain becomes so unbearable that I have to do something. When I get under the next lamp, I will kill again.