wine [Theme]

And it’s not my fault that you like other music!

- At least something will be great.

I hear. I hear your heart. I can hear how hard it beats in your chest. His blows echo in my head. What a pity that it no longer beats just for me. And now you are on the threshold of eternity... Because of me. I promised you my strength, not my life. But why do I need life if you are not in it? Converted by my blood, not his. Not with Istvan's blood. I lost you forever. And it's my fault. The worst punishment of all possible, I determined for myself, is to stay as far away from you as possible,” said the vampire.

I thought it would be easier for you to join us.

The feeling of guilt that you are potentially not an ideal mother is born with the child.

Go to the police and confess what you did. They will believe you. I can't kill. Tried while you were sleeping. I will never be able to understand people who are capable of killing. People like you. But now I will do it.

- I cannot judge you, a person can only judge himself.

- Since when did everything become too much for you?

You lose a friend, accept responsibility - and are left with a feeling of guilt. A familiar picture.

- They beat the guilty and don’t let them cry!

Dmitry had a nightmare - a crowd of painted crappers with scales and yellow feathers stormed a machine-gun point on the mountain under wild chants, and those who ran back were mowed down by another machine gun. In the dream, it was clear that the machine gun was actually the same, and the reason for the illusion was the spherical shape of all earthly meanings and the eternal Russian guilt before some murky authorities (either local, or global, or again as with the machine gun).

Using various tricks you can forget for a while about jitters and mental pain, but you cannot run away from them. Feelings of restlessness and bitterness cannot be cured by loud music, shopping or entertainment, because illusions do not help. You can escape into them for a while, but then everything: fear, confusion, guilt - returns, but with increased strength. And there is nowhere to hide from this - illusions have lost their magic and can no longer intoxicate. You are left alone with reality and feel how the world and life are falling apart. You don't know what to grab onto to stay in place. You have no idea what phrases to calm yourself down with. Everything seems so... so... insignificant and stupid.

Well, okay! And good.

- But if you think that this world cannot be changed, then this only means that you are not the one who will change it.