Ken Kesey. Over the cuckoo's nest (№ 105933)

And later, hiding in the latrine from the black boys, I'd take a look at my own self in the mirror and wonder how it was possible that anybody could manage such an enormous thing as being what he was.
And after hiding in the bathroom from the nurses, I looked at myself in the mirror and was surprised that someone managed such an unheard of thing - to be yourself.