Chuck Palahniuk. Survivors (№ 412)

Survivor retention Client Number Eighty-Four has lost everyone he ever loved and everything that gave his life meaning. He is tired and sleeps most of the time. He began to drink and smoke. He has no appetite. He seldom bathes and hasn't shaved in weeks.
Ten years ago, he was the hardworking salt of the earth. He just wanted to go to Heaven. Today he sits here, and all the world, for which he worked, disappeared. All his external rules and controls are gone.
There is no Hell. There is no Heaven.
And it dawns on the idea that everything is possible.
Now he wants it all.