Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche. Ecce Homo how one becomes himself (№ 6199)

I know atheism is not as a result, still less as an event; it is certainly my instinct. I'm too curious, too mysterious, too arrogant to allow yourself the answer, tough as a fist. God is rude, like a fist, the answer, adelicate against us thinkers - in fact, even just a rough fist as the prohibition for us: you have nothing to think about!..