Ken Kesey. Over the cuckoo's nest (№ 104876)

When a man showed up you didn't want to look at his face and he didn't want to look at yours, because it's painful to see somebody so clear that it's like looking inside him, but then neither did you want to look away and lose him completely. You had a choice: you could either strain and look at things that appeared in front of you in the fog, painful as it might be, or you could relax and lose yourself.
When you meet a person, you don't want to face him, and he wants very much painful to see someone with such clarity, it's like looking inside him, but to turn away entirely and you lose too reluctant. So choose: you could either strain and look at what appears out of the fog, although painful to watch, or just relax and lose yourself in the darkness.