Ethel Lillian Voynich. Broken friendship (№ 13559)

To think that I'm afraid, better off dead. Really fear is worse than death.
- So you believe fearlessness - it is rather the confidence that you're not afraid, not the absence of fear, really?
- Maybe we better clarify the wording? What you call courage?
- You know better.
But I don't know if it's not a conscious fear, which does not prevent to see things in their true light.
Is for me too thin.
- Really? You see, before becoming a clown, I studied philosophy. Complex combination, isn't it? For example, Marchand believes that Tuesday, I behaved bravely, just because I lay still and did not complain. He'd lay still if I writhe hurt even more. And what there complaints when you like to burn alive? Here you can squeal like a pig which is cut or lie down very quietly. In the second case, acquire the reputation of a brave man.