Night in the Woods (№ 350190)

Now I know you. I thought I knew before, but you know, after the kid was in the hospital, many years ago, I was told that I have anger issues, but it's not. I was angry over something like this, something that I lost. Since then, attempts not to be angry made me helpless and I was losing more and more... not getting any Better. I want to be evil. When I got out of College, I had this on the bus, and maybe I saw it from the window. The last leaf on the tree. He drops off at the end. I'm so scared constantly, and rhinestones means "pain", feels like it was over, long before I came back. So long tried to hide from him and escape. Clear. It will not end until I die. But when I die, I want to feel the pain when friends leave, when to let go when this whole town will be erased from the cards, I want to feel such pain. Much. I want to lose, want to be beaten down by life, do not want to give up, while not getting rid of me and all of this is over. And you know what? Until that happens, I want to hope again and to feel pain. Because it means that something makes sense, it means that, at least, I mean something. Heh-heh-ha-ha-heh-heh-heh! Mean something already very awesome... You know that I do not understand?... Oh shut up already! I know in the end, it will not save me, but I have no hope for the future. I just need to save me now, so if you're going to kill me now do it! If not [awakened].