Stanislaw LEM. Solaris (№ 195425)

At this point I wanted to be alone. I've never dare to nothing came... Looking into the darkening sky, in the stars, which was only a transparent shadow of the earth stars, I stood without movement, and in the emptiness, which succeeded the mad race of thoughts, growing without words is dead, indifferent confidence that there unattainable for me in the depths of consciousness, where I had chosen and, pretending that nothing happened, did not even have the strength to disguise myself.