Hermann Hesse. Steppenwolf (№ 309285)

He is a genius of suffering, he developed a brilliant, unlimited, terrible capacity for suffering. The basis of his pessimism - not contempt for the world and contempt for myself, for, with all the devastating cruelty of his opinions about the institution or orders of the people, he never considered himself an exception, his arrows he sent first and foremost to himself, he hated and denied myself in the first place.