Arturo Pérez-Reverte. Tango of the old guard (№ 313463)

And in my case all went wrong then finally - she continues - and I began to bear malice, you know, so shallow and disgusting, the way only we women when we feel bad... actually, not so bad, but it does not need to know. Several times he tried to save our relationship from what was called "vulgarity," and from total collapse, and then gave up, stepped back, but, like most men, to leave he managed not on another woman.