SelfPub: It's a terrible, disgusting ...

It's a horrible, disgusting feeling of helplessness when you're in love with a man who absolutely do not care about your health, mental or physical, your feelings and you in General. When you, thinking about it, begin to tremble, imagining how he touching your skin with your fingertips and stroking your hands over the curves of your body. When catching him looking at me, you shudder and tremble, like a leaf until, until it again will not turn with the same indifferent look as always. When you're waiting for a message from him for hours, if not days, just to get a one word reply to your tirade about the pain. When your eyes fill with tears whenever you understand that you will not be together, no matter how much your heart beating in your moments of random intimacy. Tell me, do you know that feeling?
I have him for a long time.