Sergei Lukyanenko. Night Watch (№ 211609)

What is it in the end! For what is worth fighting for what's right I fight, when I stand at the turn, halfway between Light and Darkness? My neighbors are vampires! They never, in any case, Kostya - never killed. They are decent people, in terms of people. If you look at their deeds - they are much more honest than the boss or Olga.
Where is the line? Where is the justification? Where's forgiveness? I don't know the answer. I do not say, even to himself. I already sailing on inertia, on the old beliefs and dogmas. How can they fight constantly, my friends, the operatives of the Watch? What explanation give for its actions? I do not know. But their solutions don't help me. Here every man for himself, as in the loud slogans of the Dark.
And the most unpleasant: I felt that if I do not understand, will not be able to find it, I'm doomed.