Lauren Oliver. Before I fall (№ 332382)

For a moment I close my eyes, imagining what it's like to lie beside him in the dark, imagining the touch of his hand. Suddenly I realize how it's impossible between him and me. When I open my eyes, he still stands by and waits to be such a normal and cute. He wants the girl in a cashmere sweater that perfectly solves crossword puzzles, or playing the violin, or working in soup kitchens. Good, normal, honest girl. Abdominal pain intensifies, sitting there like a wild beast and eats my insides. I'll never be good enough for him. Even if I have to live this day until the end of time, I'll never meet him.