George Orwell. One thousand nine hundred eighty four (№ 388789)

"If I could save Julia by doubling my own suffering, I would go for it? he asked himself. And he answered: Yes, I would have gone". Alas, this is just philosophizing. He knew he should answer, and all his determination not more than duty. It is the mind talking and not your heart. Here anything it is impossible to feel, only pain and only pain waiting. And besides, feeling pain, who could ask for anything, it's strengthening? No, to this question he could not answer.