WE ARE JUST AFRAID TO LIVE (№ 43725)

~ We hide behind a wall of indifference, afraid of new feelings and emotions ... ~ We start blogs hiding behind nicknames, pour out our souls to an indifferent Internet because we think that we are completely alone in this world ... ~ We easily communicate with hundreds of strangers on social networks, calling them "friends", instead of talking to one person who is dearest to us ... ~ We are afraid to ask for help when we really need it, thinking that we will be considered weak .. . ~ We need support and a strong shoulder nearby, but it's easier for us to be strong, proud and with nothing to admit to it ... ~ We seem proud, strong and independent, although the heart breaks with pain and longing ... ~ We smile at others, convincing them that everything is fine, try to hide the pain, and cry at night, burying our face into a pillow ... ~ We put on masks, gradually losing ourselves as real ones, getting confused in the roles we play, turning life into a silly masquerade, show, game for the public ... ~ We look away and look for answers anywhere, but not in the eyes dear to us on the contrary ... ~ We laugh and pretend that we don't care instead of taking our hands and say everything as it is, admit your feelings, voice your thoughts ... ~ We put the ellipsis where you need to put a bullet, hoping that it still can be ... ~ We try to hold back when you just need to let it go. .. ~ We look at the phone screen in the hope of hearing the same call instead of dialing the number ourselves and simply saying "Hello", thinking that it is better to show our pride than true feelings, considering them a manifestation of weakness ... ~ We write nonsense, trying to understand yourself, but instead only get more confused ... ~ Wet we say a lot that in the end we forget to say the most important words ... ~ We laugh it off, hiding our real thoughts and desires behind a nervous laugh ... ~ We compose letters, trying to simply and frankly tell everything that has accumulated in the soul, and then we edit them and send a dry, polite and concise version ... ~ We say no when the heart desperately shouts "YES" ... ~ We leave when we want to stay ... ~ We give up when we need to fight .. . ~ We do not trust, but demand that they trust us ... ~ We know how to love, but it is easier for us to hate ... ~ We get used to to him or to someone, we live in an ordinary and colorless world, although in an instant they could decorate it with all the colors of the rainbow, letting something new into it ... ~ We stand still when we reach out and say "Come to me", losing someone who is an important part of us and our world ... ~ We say "just friends" when we cannot understand - this is still friendship, or something more ... ~ We are too we think a lot, skipping the moments that need to be lived, guided only by emotions, impulses and desires ... ~ We think about the consequences before to do something, thereby depriving ourselves of the chance to be happy ... ~ We are ashamed of our impulses and desires, being confident that we will not be understood, will not be supported, will not be accepted ... ~ We surround ourselves with generally accepted conventions and rules, we drive ourselves into narrow frames, being careful of passive glances of passers-by, forgetting that each person is unique ... ~ We love, but are silent; we dream, but do not strive to fulfill our dreams; breathing, but suffocating; We believe in God, but lose faith in ourselves; we do things that bring us moments of happiness, and then we regret what we did ... ~ We walk in circles, afraid to take a step to the side and radically change our lives, even if we know that these changes are for the better ... One step ... and get everything we dream about, everything we want, all we need! Just take a chance: ask for help; to allow someone with whom you don’t need to wear a maxi to be with whom you don’t always have to be strong; forget, forgive, understand; dial the number; take outstretched hand; to say everything as it is, without hiding or fearing your feelings; hug if you want to hug; kiss if you want to kiss; go forward in spite of everyone and everything; dot all the i's ... and finally start calling a spade a spade! We are simply afraid to live the way we want! We are simply afraid to live the way we ... We are simply afraid to live the way ... We are simply afraid to live the way ... WE ARE SIMPLY AFRAID TO LIVE !!!