Angel de Kuate. Eve's Apple (№ 8136)

The decision about the death that takes a person who is in deep spiritual crisis, of course, a kind of madness. But what to do? Madness and incompetence are two different things. The conflict of mind and soul reaches its final climax. And this is the worst, most difficult, most dangerous test, which only can befall a soul.
The soul who does not believe in death, not understanding that death is possible at all, driven by the mind of a desperate man into a corner. The logic of his reasoning at some point prevails over the power of the spiritual sense: if the world is evil, stupid, ignorant and cruel, what to do in this blessed soul? Mind like soul provides the last opportunity to say - "Yes, I agree to die."
There is something devilish... maybe, if the soul agrees to the death 0 this will be the moment of her true death? Maybe it really can kill?.. But the soul can not, can not... And although we have no logical reason to continue living if all that life suggests otherwise, but the soul... the Soul is grasping at straws.
Strange place God in a person's life. He plays the role of straw. Think about him in that moment, when all other arguments have exhausted themselves. He appears in our lives at the moment, it seems that even the stray dog would have refused us... the Poor in spirit - Yes, comforted.