Book: New moon. Page 6

"Don't promise me anything," I whispered. If I allow myself to hope, but this does not lead to anything ... it kills me. After all the merciless vampires had been unable to finish me off, hope would do the job for them.

- How can you stand so close to her?
- Not without effort - said Edward quietly.
- But you still crave it! You're so hard to overcome yourself!
- I look at it as the price for everything.
Aro was skeptical: - a Very high price.
- It's worth it.

You see, I cannot exist in a world without you...

Heavenly enjoyment in the midst of the fire.

I did not expect so easy to convince you. Thought there is an insurmountable difficulty, and you're so confident in the truth that have hours to cough up a lie... I lied... I'm Sorry, I'm sorry I hurt...
I had said a thousand times that I love you, and you let one single word to undermine faith in my feelings?
How can you say to reassure you? What can I say to you to believe me? You're awake and not dead. I'm here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you.

Forbidden to remember; terrified to forget.
It is impossible to remember, impossible to forget - my cross to bear.

I thought it was weird - you can decide what you say about me. I also like lost myself. I was unable to breathe for a long time. I took a deep breath into your lungs, enjoying the discovery. And my heart. It definitely was lost.

... But you know what is most important. If you're not there, I don't need heaven.

I'm not mad, all is love. There was no madness, it was only flour. With you my heart began to beat in almost ninety years, but it was great. Like I again took heart. Like I left everything I had in me, here with you.

Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-points of light and reason... and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.
Before you came along, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but with occasional gleams of starlight and of the mind, and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly, everything became as if on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor fell down to the horizon covered with darkness. Nothing has changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I could no longer see the stars. And no more anything.

I left you first because I wanted you to have a chance to live a normal, happy human life. I just saw that you were with me, you're constantly on the verge of danger, I took you from the world you belonged to, risked your life every moment, when we were there. I had to do something, and I thought that the only way that I could choose is to leave you and go. If I didn't think you were always safe, I may not have left you. I'm too selfish. Only you - the most important of what I wanted, what I needed. What I want, and I need to be with you, and I know that I would never find strong enough to leave again. I can't justify the violent skies, who built this! It seems that you can't be secure, regardless of how many miles will divide us.

The time goes by. Even when it seems impossible.
Even when every ticking of the clock is given to hurt, like the pulse of blood in the place injury. It passes unevenly, in strange rolls and stretching calms, but walking, doing his thing.