Book: Boredom



But I was suffering. And gradually from this suffering grew a fantastic idea, and it struck me that it had not occurred to me before: maybe the only way to get rid of Cecilia, that is to make sure that it bored me, was to marry her. Cecilia, the mistress could not be boring, but I was almost certain that it bored me as soon as you become a wife. The thought of marriage became more and more attractive, opening before me the prospect, quite similar to the one that usually lives in the imagination of men who intend to marry: he flatters himself with the thought of eternal love, on the contrary, I entertaining the idea of that so I can finally end my love. I'd imagine, being married, Cecilia will become the most common wife Horny homemade and secular duties, and finding them full satisfaction, will finally lose its mystery, so to say calm down.
№ 251369   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
... if the world were arranged in the image and likeness of Cecilia, he would have been quite different from the one in which we live: that would be a world where everything is mixed and piled in a heap; the world of the formless, random and surreal; a world in which all women would belong to all men, and there would be a woman, which would be only one man.
№ 251368   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
What could be the reason when you fall in love? Fall in love, and everything.
№ 251366   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
Always, at any time and in any situation, ready to surrender physically, Cecilia, as soon as it came to her, turned into a mollusk, which compresses the fold of your shell the better, the more we decompress.
№ 251364   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
The jealous man suffers from an exaggerated sense of possessiveness, he was all the time imagining that someone wants to steal his beloved; suspicion, assumes the character of mania, raises his wildest fantasies and can bring it even before the crime. I, on the other hand, suffered just because he loved Cecilia (without a doubt, now it was love), and if I wanted through surveillance to make sure that she was cheating on me, not in order to punish her and to prevent her from cheating on me further, and in order to get rid of his love. Jealous, though not realizing in this report, in essence, seeks to consolidate the status of slavery, which is, I just wanted to get rid of slavery, and believed that to achieve this goal can only be the case if I will be able to deprive Cecilia aura of independence and secrecy; to make sure of her betrayal, I had to see all her vulgarity, pettiness, mediocrity.
№ 251363   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
Love has no reasons, it is true, a man loves, and all; but every love is somehow painted. You love, and you're sad, or funny, or disturbing, you can be trusting, and can be jealous - in short, for love there's always something else.
№ 251360   Added MegaMozg 18-01-2017 / 11:17
People are divided into two broad categories: those who in the face of insurmountable difficulties experiencing the desire to kill and those who, by contrast, feel the desire to commit suicide.
№ 149915   Added MegaMozg 11-01-2017 / 08:54