Book: Zinc Boys

We were fulfilling our international duty, everything was laid out on the shelves ... Only now I started thinking when the stereotype crumbled ... But I could never read Turgenev's Mumu without tears! In a war with a person, something happens, there the person is and is no longer the same. Did they teach us: "Thou shalt not kill!" The war veterans came to school, to the institute and told how they killed. They all had medal strips pinned to their ceremonial costumes. I have never heard that you cannot kill in war. I knew that only those who kill in peacetime are judged. They are murderers, and in war they are called differently: "filial duty to the Motherland", "holy man's cause", "defense of the Fatherland." They explained to us that we are repeating the feat of the soldiers of the Great Patriotic War. How could I doubt? We have always been told that we are the best; if we are the best, then why should I think myself - everything is right with us. Then I thought a lot. Friends said: "You either have gone crazy, or you want to go crazy." And I (my mother raised me, a strong, domineering person) never wanted to interfere in my fate ...