Alexander Herzen. Who is to blame? (№ 414941)

Where could Lyubonka go, who was repulsed from everywhere? Perhaps she would have fled to the regiment, or I don't know where, if she had been a man; but as a girl she fled to herself; for years she endured her grief, her grievances, her idleness, her thoughts; when, little by little, a part of the wandering in her soul began to settle, when there was no satisfaction of the natural, strong need to speak out to someone, she grabbed the pen, she began to write, that is, to express, so to speak, to herself that occupied her and thereby relieve her soul ...