Leo Tolstoy. Hadji Murat (№ 459745)

The war seemed to him [Officer Butler] only in that he exposed himself to danger, the possibility of death, and thereby deserved rewards and the respect of both his local comrades and his Russian friends. The other side of the war: death, wounds of soldiers, officers, mountaineers, strange as it may be to say, was not even imagined in his imagination. Even unconsciously, in order to maintain his poetic idea of war, he never looked at the dead and wounded.