Book: My beautiful misfortune

- Wasn't that because of the rain you've got a good excuse to undress?
- No. Upset?
- Not at all.

- I'm not your girlfriend! - I pushed him away.
- I never told you about this! with disbelief he shook his head. - We are together twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, you sleep in my bed, but the rest of the time you act like you don't want to be seen with me!

The more he smiled the more I wanted to hate him. But that smile did it completely impossible.

To tell you why I want you? - anguished he said. - I didn't know I was lost until you found me. Didn't know what loneliness is, until the first remained in bed without you. You're the only right choice. Dove, you're just the person I've waited my whole life.

- You know, we screwed up, right? I'm impulsive and quick-tempered, but you're the one who got inside me. You act like you hate me one moment and at another like I need you. I always ruin everything and I don't deserve you... but I fucking fell in love with Abby. I love you more than anyone or anything. When you're around, I don't need no booze, no money, no fights... all I need is you. You're the only one I think. You're the only one I dream of. You're all that I want.

All this time I thought that Travis needs me, but now felt like a shiny new toy as he called me Parker. Travis wanted to prove to the subject that I still belong to him. Him.

- I draw - I said to the empty room.
When these words penetrated my brain, I was filled with disappointment last night. I belonged to no one.
So lonely I still was never.

- Abs? - twisted guy. This dude you are not confused with physical rollers?
Dove? I said with equal disgust. - Annoying bird that shits on sidewalks?

- He kissed you?
I pursed my lips and nodded.
- He has very soft lips.
Travis winced.
I don't care what his mouth is.
Trust me, this is important. I'm always so nervous about first kisses. But this was not so bad.
- Are you nervous about kissing? - with joy in his voice asked Travis.
- Only for the first. I just hate them.
- I would have hated if I had to kiss Parker Hayes.

- You drive a Porsche?
- Not just "Porsche" and "Porsche nine hundred and eleven Dzhi ti three". Big difference.
Let me guess: it's the love of your life? I asked, quoting the statement of Travis on his motorcycle.
- No, it's just a machine. Love of a lifetime will become a woman with my last name.

Friendship with Travis requires patience and the ability to forgive. He is himself the universe.

Could spend a thousand years trying to erase this moment, but it will still burn in my memory.

Anyway, pity the guy who believes he has a chance. I am hopelessly and completely in love with you.

... I blinked, trying to remember this wonderful moment. I knew that I was going to wish for its repetition for the rest of my life, so I try to enjoy to the full.