Book: I believe

That is why I call myself a bad Christian. You cannot serve God and mammon. And serve.
Read: "Leave all, follow Me." And don't leave. Hold on, cling to it ALL. Yes, very difficult, almost impossible to leave it. It is not only the apartment, clothes, delicious food, favorite books, maybe even a loved one, family... For me, as for many, it is also a favorite work...
Here we live - forked, going through life two-faced Janus, pray to God and reserved, Yes, but still worship mammon.