Book: Azure sin

Mika didn't argue when I knew that was wrong, or knew I was right. Richard would. Richard always argues. You'd think if he will pretend to believe that the world is much better than he is, then this world will change. But it does not change. The world is what it is. And no anger, hatred and self-contempt, and blind stubbornness, nothing will.

If Richard will come back to me, it will not be forever. He'll be back just because can't help myself, but he too hates himself to love someone else.

Richard, like me, will never be ordinary life. Only I've accepted it, and he's still struggling. Struggling to become a man, to become ordinary, to not love me. At last he succeeded.

I allowed Richard to leave me. I knew that he was leaving, but sat on the floor and looked after him. I stood in his way. I believed that it was his choice and not hold anybody who does not want to be held. So fuck it all to hell. Don't go, Asher, I beg you, don't go. I love how the light Shine on your hair. I love the way you smile, when you forget to hide and do not want anyone to impress. I love your laugh. Love the sorrow in your voice, like the taste of rain. I love to see how you look at Jean-Claude for his walk when you think nobody sees you, because that's how I look at it. Love your eyes. Love your suffering. Love you.

I'm happy that my heart belongs to no one. It's a goddamn mine, and I intend to keep in one piece.

It is impossible to dig out of man of shit if he doesn't agree himself to take a shovel and to help you.

A woman may not see the man, if they are sufficiently Friendly, but men rarely stop to see the woman to woman.

- I'm so tired of all this crap.
- What is that?
- All at all!

They say love overcomes all. So - lie. Too dark? Well, I'm sorry.

Sometimes you have to deal with the devil not because you want to, but because otherwise he'll find another.

Favorite children's books read are not those who fuck and those you love.