Robert Louis Stevenson. The suicide club (№ 452165)

Togo is held back by the thought of loved ones who would be too stunned by such an end, and in the event of publicity, perhaps, would bring reproaches on them; the other is too weak in spirit to take his own life. To some extent, I belong to this second category; I, for example, am decidedly incapable of putting a pistol to my temple and pulling the trigger: something stronger than myself prevents me from making this last gesture, and although life is completely disgusting to me, I do not have the strength to go towards death myself.