Elif Shafak. Eve's Three Daughters (№ 406421)

But, alas, not a single string in her soul trembled. Why is it like this? Why can't she like this kind, handsome guy who is suitable for her age and, perhaps, will make her happy? No, she continues to sigh for the professor - a person much older than herself, mysterious and inaccessible. A person with whom she cannot have a future. Still curious, Peri thought, why had she never dreamed of happiness? Why did this magic word, which is full of the pages of books and lyrics, invariably leave her indifferent? No, of course she didn't want to be unhappy. I just didn't see the search for happiness as my main goal in life. If it had been otherwise, she would never have allowed herself to dry up for a man like Azur.