Character: Marcos



That's what throws, spoiling mom's kindness, her acts of salvation, courage and bravery. The shadow of debt. Requirements and obligations it has taken on saved. His good deeds she uses as currency: exchange them for their dedication and loyalty. Now I understand why Madeline left many years ago. The rope that had once pulled her out of the pool, can become a noose around his neck. People, including me, in the end, inevitably disappoint mom. They can not recover what is owed, as she wants. Mama's consolation prize is the grim satisfaction of self-righteousness, the will to impose sentences strategically with a good hearth, as is her people down.
It makes me sad, because I see that the need of the mother, her restlessness, fear of loneliness, the horror of being stranded, abandoned.
№ 386424   Added MegaMozg 19-01-2020 / 15:54
You turned out good.
I'm proud of you, Marcos.
I'm fifty-five. I waited all my life for these words. Is it too late? Us with her? Maybe we have spent too long too much? But somewhere inside I think it's better to leave things as they are, to pretend that we don't know how not suited to each other. Not so much pain. Maybe even better than this belated gift. This fragile, shivering a glimpse of how it could be between us. From this is born only regret, I tell myself, and that it is good? Nothing it will bring. Lost irretrievably.
And yet, when mom says:
- Isn't it beautiful, Markos? - and I say to her:
- Yes, mother. Beautiful, something in me begins to swing open, and I take mother's hand.
№ 386423   Added MegaMozg 19-01-2020 / 15:52
Just when I live with a woman passive, it's me little by little, disheartening, lost hunting to brew a fresh mate, bawl songs in the bathroom all the time as if I hear a muffled call to order every thing in its place, Canary misses, the milk does not run away on the stove right horror.
№ 154335   Added MegaMozg 11-01-2017 / 13:18