Character: Shinji Ikari

I thought there was only pain and bitterness. I thought that one could only run away from such a reality. But where I ran, there was nothing good either. I was not needed in that world. As, in other matters, and all other people.

- By understanding the difference between yourself and others, you strengthen your understanding of yourself.

- Nobody understands me.
- Are you a fool? Of course no one understands you! No one will understand you.
- The only person who can take care of you and understand you is yourself.
- So you have to take care of yourself.
- But I still don't understand myself! I don't even know what defines my essence! How can I take care of myself?!

- But I still don't understand myself! I don't even know what defines my essence! How can I take care of myself ?!

So I am what I think of myself? I am what I imagine myself to be. But I don't understand myself ... Where am I? What am I?

To be happy, I need ... significance. I want to mean something. I want to be helpful in order to get the attention of others.

If I run away, I won't be respected.

- You don't care about me, do you?
- Such excuses are the same as attempts to escape. In fact, you are afraid of misunderstanding. You are afraid that others will reject you. You can't even admit to yourself that weakness.

I'm afraid of disappearing. To disappear because it is not worthy of existence.

- This is the world in which all you do is wait for someone to give you something.

- So what? It's better than taking someone's life!

I guess I just wanted my father to be proud of me. Today he praised me for the first time. I was so happy that it happened. It turns out that my father now appreciates me.

This ceiling again. My reward for piloting Eva.

An unfamiliar ceiling.