Book: Jungle inside you. Page 2

Why suffer so much? After all, I can avoid it, as everyone avoids. I will find the same lonely one. I inspire myself: here it is, my happiness. Month after month I will wave my red cloak in front of him until I stick the final sword into his withers. The bull will fall on the sand and propose to me. The wedding will be followed by children - one, another, maybe a third. Then the grandchildren will go. Farewell desert, I will not see you until the end of my life ...

My grandmother told my mother: "Being alone is bad." Mom kept repeating to Hannah, "Being alone is bad." Therefore, Hannah all her life and clung to anything, just to escape from loneliness, from her desert.

Live as you lived, just don't look for anything, you know? All that comes to you, accept, but do not pursue anything yourself - this is important. And yes, you will be sad and lonely. This is the desert after the jungle on all maps. But don't be afraid, step into this scary place that everyone avoids. This is where you will meet the genies. Their task is to deprive you of the joy of a fulfilling life. Your task is to trample them. These are going to be difficult days, Hannah. These will be the most important days of your life. One morning you will open your eyes and your desert will seem beautiful to you. Then the thing for which you appeared in the world will begin to happen.

I stayed in my bedroom and began to reflect on the truth that the Kabulets had hidden for me. No wonder he did this: the secret turns out to be the most important. As soon as I understood the meaning of his words, my life was transformed.

At that moment I understood a line from a Christian book that lay on the bedside table in my cell: "Let your light shine before people." I found out what my light is when I stuck the first needle into the genie. I'm lucky, but not everyone is so lucky - most have to work hard to discover their light.

If something unpleasant, disgusting arises inside you - the genie is nearby. He will do everything in his power to make you carry out his nefarious plan, and not follow your will. Do you feel rage, guilt, resentment? Close your eyes and say, “Genie, I can see you. I know where you are from and what you want. But to be my way. " This is the needle. When you realize that the black mist in your chest is beginning to dissipate, open your eyes - you have won the battle. Each genie must have exactly thirty-three needles stuck in it. Thirty-three - that's what my book says.

“No,” I bit my lip. - And how to kill the genies? What does your book say?

Shadows surrounded me, tall, pointed-headed, with crossed arms. There was no one around. Scream, run - you won't be saved. Zaru taught: if you don't know what to do, pretend to be dead. I fell on my back and closed my eyes. My heart was beating so that the earth trembled and the trees swayed.

The path to heaven is through hell.

It was because of this smile that I left my home, wife and village the next day. I went into the jungle, in the direction indicated by Zara.

- There. What is there is unknown. Those who went into those thickets never returned.

- Do not. Not everyone needs to wake up. The snake also needs food.

- If you feel anger, resentment, shame, guilt, anxiety, then the genie is near.

- So that not everyone would come to heaven, but only a worthy one - the one who turned his life into a battlefield with evil spirits and defeated them.