Author of quotes: Alexander Makarov. Page 4

It is unbearable to see with all their insides what they, the “others,” do not see. When you are even silent too loud. Sometimes, you meet the same eyes, filled to the brim, you look into them with the hope of being heard, and they wearily close. It's easier. And again running after the ghosts, or from them. Here and there. Year after year. And the abyss is getting bigger. It is scary from the thought that the moment will come when it will no longer be possible to jump over.

The world is not changed by the wave of a magic wand. Never all wars and diseases will not disappear in a fantastic way. To understand this painful, but necessary. Reality is not divided into black and white, it is colorful and multifaceted, with thousands of shades. Every step you take towards another person, every little good deed, which sometimes seems a trifle, in fact, is an important part of large mosaic called "life".

The reality of the unreal. What is truth - your thoughts, feelings, or things that you can touch? Someone in the soul of the photographer accurately captures the details hidden from prying eyes, sees things from an unusual perspective, but on the way to work in the Bank. Someone is a talented musician, composing in his head the Symphony, sitting at office Desk. There is a subtle sense of florists, perfumers, illustrators, selling sneakers. I met and outstanding speakers, and philosophers working managers, taxi drivers and bartenders. Why? Because from childhood we were taught that dreams are folly, self-indulgence and stupidity, is the only real grey box buildings outside the window, the solid crust of diplomas of higher education, buckwheat growing in price and yellow balls the tongue... Someone to be in a collision of realities? What is more important - inside or outside?

I always thought that the empty eye sockets of old houses look at me with reproach as if to say "what have you done to yourself?". I looked at the black window, glaringly contrasting with the white stucco, sometimes cracked, and again he couldn't breathe. They are like a symbol of the subconscious, on the mezzanine which holds many secrets. I wanted to climb over the fence to get into the window of the first floor and turn on the light. Through the door would be easier, but it's locked. You should try the window, to jump in total darkness and sharp movement to deal with her like a band-aid rip off broken knees. First, you can go blind, but very soon your eyes will adjust and see things as they are. Surely there will be tears, but then will come peace, and I'll know exactly what to do next. To live with eyes wide shut is very convenient, but to see clearly is priceless.

Poor adults under-loved children. How many of them walks on our planet. Many can't even understand how "grow legs" of their problems, and often everything is very simple. Domestic violence, alcoholism of parents, indifference of the grandmother, even the death of a pet - all baby tragedies people pushed to the far corners of memory, instead of fully "live", but even there they continue to affect the rest of reality, poisoning her. We change partners, city, profession, but not its own model of behavior, so all situations are repeated again and again, you can't escape yourself.

Honesty is the bestower of liberation, honesty, removes the shackles, which for many years had left bloody footprints on the fragile wrists.

Security - that's what I'm looking for. I really could not articulate what is important for me in relations with people. I get it now. SECURITY. Not only physical but also emotional. I want not to be afraid to be themselves, not play roles, not to hide the scars and still be confident that I am. I do not regret, and I accept this with all my Luggage. I'm tired of all of your life hiding in a shell like a turtle, tired to increase armor and to hide my story for fear of yet another mockery.

It is believed that leaving is always easier than staying that it is easier to let go than to fight this lie. The most difficult is to make a decision to take responsibility and to break the vicious cycle, preserving the firmness in his convictions, and deleting from the head of the phrase, "what will people say". Very often we don't want to see or be aware of, something to fight and for what. Emptiness, illusion, hypocrisy. Women and men around the world are making pathetic attempts to hold water in a sieve, namely "save the family", "save the marriage", when save has long been nothing. To the question "why?" is heard only disjointed mumbling, "well, so much covered... where he is without me...Yes I need to be with the child..." and so on. Most of my friends in the divorce. Half of them just turned thirty. The institution of marriage is dead or we have forgotten how to love? Or Vice versa - finally found myself bursting out of the triangle of Karpman?

Starting to believe read recently the theory that everything in life is not accidental. Any meeting, any event is the result of any action in the past. Everyone attracts what he wants, openly or on a subconscious level. Herself indignantly respond that much of the disease I definitely did not want to, but then I remember how desperately I wanted the attention, care and support. I'm tired of my life and wanted to relax, slow down, find time for introspection and thinking about the future. And that's got. Only one problem is that you get used to it. When you can shirk responsibility for my life for a very good cause, and not to suffer pangs of conscience, creates a new "comfort zone", but can not bring, and just openly say "I'm bad, leave me alone" or "stay with me", "I need your help". It seems elementary, but is actually very difficult. Talking about your feelings is generally the most difficult, at least for me, but I'm learning. If pain in the heel stopping to walk, it gets smears green paint and again runs forward, and if the pain in the soul, then it somehow decided to ignore, to hide, to pretend as if does not hurt, but in this case for many years, so many splinters to fasten that when opening from the inside going to look like a hedgehog.

I hope that sooner or later everyone realizes how important it is to protect the inner world of others, not to trample it with muddy shoes, do not throw cigarette butts, do not spit in the most expensive. There must be a kind of filter through which you want to ignore all the thoughts before they articulate. Negativity aside, like coffee grounds, but pure, strong, invigorating drink of positive energy already, you can gently pour into fragile porcelain cups on human souls.

I tired to tame your inner fire again, I accept myself for who I am, I love myself, love my life and will not allow anyone to destroy it. All hail the absolute monarchy.

I told myself "don't be nervous", "calm", "don't react". And who said you can't? Anger is a signal that my boundaries/interests/rights are being violated, so why not protect them? What does the phrase "never mind"? In my opinion, you can not easily look into the eyes of the problem and find a way out, don't pay attention much easier.

Many say that they are not satisfied with life, relationships, personal and professional, but how to change the situation, no one knows, because of this, as always, no time to think. Need to finish roasting the chicken and fall face in a pillow to Wake up tomorrow in exactly the same Groundhog day.

People who don't know how to dream, will always try to destroy those who are capable of it.